Perhaps those of you who are struggling to understand my refusal to "move on" would find it easier if you accepted that my belief that I am a priest is of the same kind of belief as that of a man who believes he is a woman. Although it is obviously possible for a transgender person to live in the body they feel is not their real body so it would be possible for me to pursue a vocation that I hated. However, it would not be a real life just as a transgender person who is not allowed to express themselves as they really are is not living a real life. Reality (authenticity) is extremely important to me. I find it very difficult to lie and presenting as anything other than a parish priest would be a travesty in my mind. To expect me to go and get reprogrammed by a psychologist is no different to expecting a gay man to undergo ex-gay treatment.