I am becoming more and more antisocial, maybe even agoraphobic. I only feel really comfortable when I am safe at home. The world scares me. Negotiating everyday life is getting very difficult for me. It just seems to me that everything out there is negative. Just trying to do a simple task involves dealing with so many barriers put up by people intent on saying "no" rather than "yes." And people, generally, are evil bastards. I can no longer deal with all the negativity out there. So I am adopting avoidance as my main strategy in life. For example, I have completely given up on asking for permission to officiate in my new diocese. I just can't be bothered with jumping any more hurdles when there doesn't need to be any hurdles whatsoever. The hoops to jump through are there simply because people are hardwired to exclude rather than include.
It's the same with the internet. I used to take an interest in everything that was going in out there. I would get involved in arguments and campaign to change the minds of those whose views on life were hurting other people. Now, I don't bother. It's too stressful and, anyway, there's no point. People, generally, are evil bastards. Christ couldn't change them so I'm certainly not up to the task. So now I hide among the likeminded on Facebook.
Yesterday, 60% of voters in North Carolina voted to ban same sex marriage under their state constitution. I actually cannot get my head around that. Why would they want to? Why would they bother? It's like 60% of the people voting to outlaw pastel green curtains. The curtains another person chooses to put up in their home does not affect me in the slightest. It's their choose. It doesn't hurt me or anybody else. It doesn't affect my choice of curtains. Just because somebody buys pastel green curtains does not mean I am going to go out and buy pastel green curtains. If I'm into blue curtains, I will continue to buy blue curtains. And it's the same if two men or two women want to get married to each other. So why even worry about it let alone campaign and then vote to ban it for eternity. The only reason why somebody would stop somebody else from doing something that does not affect them or hurt anybody else is that they are inherently evil, small-minded, vicious, petty bastards who delight in removing the chance of happiness from complete strangers.
I am scared. I am scared of what people have turned into. The concept of "live and let live" has been replaced by the satanic concept of "suffer and make suffer."