I will never work as a priest again. Too many powerful people sincerely believe I should not be a priest and the truth is, I do not fit in with their concept of the Church, a concept they will do anything to protect. I know that now. I was a fool to think otherwise for so long.
My former bishop has said that I have to pay rent on the church house I am living in and I cannot afford to do that.
So, what to do now?
I doubt that it is easy for a fifty two year old man with no qualifications and no experience to get a job and anyway, I simply cannot envisage working in some tedious, rat race job whilst all the while aware of the fact that I used to be a priest. It would be a slow and painful death.
Jesus had it easy, he was only on the cross for a few hours.